Black November

I will forever remember November 2021. Everything that can go wrong have gone wrong. It was this month that a potential business deal went sour when a trusted friend and former colleague failed to deliver. He led us on a merry go round for a month promising that something good will turn up. In the end he just faltered and everything went south. That was a lucrative deal that would have been a game changer.

Due to curiosity, I answered to a few investment deals on line. It was fine at the beginning in fact I invested a lot of money and made a lot of money. However my trader grew overly ambitious and got me to trade on counters that was supposed to be based on strong fundamental research. Cut a long story short I have lost everything.

Then another potential business also went south when a former staff decided not to proceed with the venture. So I am saddled with a good offer. Great ideas. Great plans. But no one to run the show or to look for land. My friend is waiting for an answer for me

BUT for some strange reason I am very calm.

NO real sleepless nights.
NO tantrums.

NO banging the head on the wall.
No nothing.

It was a lot of money that I lost but I remember this behaviour of people from Terengganu, mujur. Mujur is akin to at least.

So while I was losing my money

AT LEAST I still have my health.

AT LEAST I still have my family.

AT LEAST I still have my parents.

AT LEAST i still have my wife.

AT LEAST I still have my children.

AT LEAST I still have my houses.

AT LEAST I still have my good paying job.

The irony was the job was what got me into this in the first place. I was facing a tough time, getting a little jaded, even felt like throwing in the towel. But something happened. I was going through my team's Appraisal and as I guided them through the review it struck me that I am being selfish. While I may be facing various challenges, they have never abandoned me. In fact they supported me through it all even going through the rubbish together with me. It's just a difficult patch that I am going through.

And my greatest AT LEAST. AT LEAST I still have friends. And one in particular, my dearest friend from my school days. We've known each other for over 40 years. He came through. He always come through.